For What Was Lost

This is such a time of happiness and excitement that I hate to bring people down, but I feel the need to honor my little one that I lost a year ago. This was the day that I had two shots of methotrexate in order to protect my health from the suspected ectopic pregnancy. My doctor determined that there was absolutely no way the pregnancy was viable and was concerned that I might have a tube rupture if the embryo was allowed to grow more. I'll never know what happened and if it was a girl or boy, but I know I would have loved her or him with all my heart. I'll never forget my joy when I found out I was pregnant for the first time. That first baby gave me hope that someday I'd be a mommy and very shortly that dream will come true. My empty arms will be filled, but I'll never forget my little angel that I never got to hold.