Expensive Habit

Apparently I have an expensive drug habit. Zofran is free with our insurance to a certain point, but I'm well beyond that point. I go through 30 pills in about a week and a half and we're covered for 30 pills per month. Now it's either pay out of pocket or get slammed on the head with the toilet lid by my beautiful 18-month old. I hope this one refill will be enough to get me through morning sickness. It has to end someday, right?

I've been feeling sorry for myself and then feeling bad for feeling sorry for myself. There are so many people that would love to be pregnant and here I am complaining about being sick. The part that bugs me the most is missing out on doing things with Mina. Last night I had another aura migraine and Jon put Mina to bed without me. We have the TV on way too much during the day so I can lay around. Mina hasn't been eating the best stuff because cooking and eating don't agree with me. We went grocery shopping this morning and Mina greeted everyone in the store with a big "hi" and a smile, but when she looked at me all she saw was a frown because the smells were getting to me. I can't be the mommy I'd like to be when I'm feeling so yucky and this is on the medication. Without the medication I wouldn't be able to leave the house.

This is what I get for having such an easy pregnancy last time. Maybe this more difficult pregnancy will at least end in an easy labor. That would be a nice switch.

Now I feel bad for complaining...

Oh, and the doppler came, but we haven't found the heartbeat yet. Jon tried a few days ago. I might try this afternoon. It's not stressing me out since it's early. Just one week until my first OB appointment with Dr. M! She's magical with the doppler so I hope she can find Mini's heartbeat.