Angry Andrea

I've been pretty optimistic and happy lately, wouldn't you say? Today, Angry Andrea reared her ugly head. At school the other day I noticed that one of my students had put on some weight and was wearing clothes that didn't flatter her figure. I had a brief thought that she could be pregnant, but kind of let it pass since I hadn't heard any rumors about that. However, when I saw her today, she was definitely wearing a maternity top. I happened to see the nurse in the hall and I asked her about it and GUESS WHAT! She's pregnant! Not only that, but her due date is August 3rd - a week before my EDD was. Why the heck did I have the miscarriage when it would have almost been a blessing for her? ARGH!!!!! Also, this is a girl in my homeroom so I'll see her every single day (it's amazing really that I hadn't put two and two together earlier). Every time I see her I'm going to have a reminder of my angels and the unfairness of life. It sucks to be her and me. This really adds another incentive to getting pregnant this cycle. Otherwise I'm going to be tortured for the rest of the year (I might be anyway). I really wasn't in the mood to teach my last class of the day right after I found out this news. I made it through though.

In other news, AF decided to arrive. I'm going in for an estradiol check and assuming my numbers are fine, they're starting me on stims on Sunday. My estimated ER by them is April 2nd, but I'm thinking it'll be more like April 5th. Who knows though because I'll be on a much larger dose of stims this time around. Yikes!