Christmas

I'm so glad that Christmas is over with. It was great seeing the family, but I really felt depressed. I hate having to act somewhat normal when I don't even really want to get out of bed. I just didn't want to ruin other people's holidays. The best part of visiting my family was getting snuggled by my niece Anya. She is such a sweetheart! She helped cheer me up some. We also enjoyed a couple of movies - The Pursuit of Happyness and Rocky Balboa.

Yesterday I got my last HCG level taken and it's negative. That means I can go back to normal with the doctor's blessings. We "celebrated" with sushi and beer last night. I'm really hoping that I ovulate soon so that I can sneak into the January/February IVF group instead of having to wait for the March/April cycle. I guess we'll just see. I'm pretty unlucky so most likely my period will start a day or two after it's too late. Gosh, I'm negative!

I go back to school on Jan. 3rd. I'm looking forward to getting my last semester of teaching over with. I'm planning to resign after this year and will be telling them at school in February. I don't know what I'll be doing with myself next year, but I just can't handle having so many people depend on me anymore. I hate missing so much school and having people in my business. I'd rather have a job where I don't need to arrange substitute plans for absences. Maybe I'll substitute teach a few days a week or something. It all kind of depends on our baby news also. I can't believe that some people try to get pregnant for years. I really feel like it's ruining our life.